Getting down, Groovy and Lost?

May 4, 2019

Collect Moments, Not things

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walking up to white tents with lines of people checking tickets, bags and IDs, I had a wrist band put on me as I walked through the gates to get in. I had a smile stretched across my face and eyes wide trying to take in everything, afraid id miss something. Crowds of people wear bright colors, crazy patterns or big accessories. Everyone was ether moseying around to the different stages place around the venue or waiting in line to buy alcohol. Walking through you can hear the different beats and lyrics from all the artist that came to perform thump in your ears. Bouncing around to different artists throughout the day letting the music pour over us and pulse through our bodies. I danced throughout the hole day barley sitting, letting the music take me away to a different place. I only stopped to walk around the food stations for lunch and dinner. The place had tons of options making it hard to chose one to eat, all the smells overwhelming my nose with happiness, knowing ill be eating soon. We ended the night with Fisher and Billie Eillish, both excellent acts and a ton of fun to sing and dance to with our voices getting lost amongst the crowd. We headed to the after party shortly after at StarBar, I chugged water attempting to rehydrate myself after the long day and heading home with friends around 1am, smiling in the cab reminiscing on the day I had with some great people.

Coming to a big event like this its chaotic, its easy to get lost and lose the people you came with. This happened a few times as I am small and very curious, so I tend to wonder. I always was able to quickly find my friends when I did get separated. Similar to the festival and getting lost, life can be like that and lately ive been feeling a little lost. Not sure what I really want in life, where I wanna go. Who i wanna be. what I want from life. I stop though and I have time to figure it out, but before coming here I had a plan. I was going to come here to learn about the culture and grow more confident in my field, Graduate from college and spend seven years travling the world, immersing myself in the different cultures. Coming here really has changed me. It has made me stop and realize life is unpredictable. I cant plan my life out down to a t, everything will have a way of working out and I just need to trust the process. I still want to travel the world, but being here has made me realize how much I do miss my friends and family. It isnt easy being so far away that you cant just drive home to see your favorite humans, it is making me more dependent on myself.

Just like this amazing event I got to experience I got separated and lost from my people; In life you will get separated and lost from your comforts. It is about what you do when you get lost that matters. It is getting lost and finding yourself that is what makes you grow as a person. It is what you make of life and every situation you get in. I am so excited to go back home and know I have grown so much from this semester away. Although I may feel lost, its okay because I trust the process and everything will have a way of working out. I will find myself better and stronger.